Slamland 2

Every major push, be it code or prose, leaves me in a “What the fuck do I do now?” state.

Come on! It’s not like I don’t have a bazillion things to do, is it? I have four other books to finish, plots to plan and an article series to write that I am already behind schedule on. I also have some sys admin stuff that I need to get to and about a ton of stuff to get out here from California. There is no shortage of work. Yet, hitting yesterday’s milestone is making me feel like I was left in the lurch, like I just lost my job. It’s crazy.

No, I can’t work on that book anymore until I get it back from the editor. Yes, I’ve been jamming on the book since December. The goal is to get something ready enough to submit to an agent. I’ve been working fairly continuously at it since then. Yesterday was a major milestone, one step closer to getting the damned thing out there!

I’ve felt like this before, over major code projects. After such enormous effort, the finish is almost anti-climactic. It leaves me feeling off-balance like, having the big rock that I’ve been pushing against suddenly removed without warning. It’s unnerving.

Mirrored from The Slamlander.